am i afraid to try to run a marathon?

after i started this blog, i admit some doubts have started to creep in that i can run a 26.2!!!! mile marathon...
definetly i will have to work on this mental issue as it's a deal breaker...
 it's like talking to women who've had kids and hearing their labor horror stories, i must concentrate on the positive marathon tales,
Yes it will be hard, but my goal is just to finish...i've started looking at marathon race result for my then 60 yr old bracket... 5.5 to 6 hrs...so must find a race whose course stays open at least 6 hrs...
i will be reaching out to some folks for help doing this
but FIRST i need to concentrate from now til June 2012 on losing 90-ish pounds, that then gives me a year to build up a running base before i start a 16wk marathon training plan

so NOW i must concentrate on the present picture, take this in small bites.... what do i need to do to lose weight in August 2011?

so i'm going to just concentrate on losing 10 lbs, plan is to workout 4 times this week...
my life has been joyously enriched by the addition of an almost 2 yr old male f2 savannah cat 11 says ago and all i want to do is sit in the guest room w/ him. we had a major breakthrough today: i picked him up. since the 1st pickup i've done it multiple times and he is purring. all well and good but that didn't get to the garage to ride the recumbent bike...
here's a blog entry and pic of our darling http://www.goldenwatercreations.blogspot.com/

i must crack the whip on myself and get to exercising or another month will drift by like July did....